Twenty Ninth of December Two Thousand and Nine

Since Christmas is over...and since my last couple of wasted posts (sorry about that) I have recuperated. That is to say I have been watered (a little 'Christmas Tipple' is rampant in the Kessie house) and fed (I'm fat...but happy). As always Christmas brought food and booze, arguments, prayer, contemplation and thanksgiving to me being in the family that i am in and being brought up by /with the best people in the world.

Christmas Cheer has made the last moments of what I previously deplored as a 'filler [somber] year', upon reflection it hasn't been all that bad - I'm alive and well and have learned a lot about myself...like - I love my natural locks - and I will not have a weave in by the end of 2010. I also discovered and proved that I have a natural talent for storytelling, and I am 100% sure that I will pursue it further having enrolled and completed two courses in 2009.
I also discovered that if I don't want to do something, then my own word is final, and I shouldn't feel bad for it - and I haven't, thus I found myself in better situations as to previous years when I would stress myself to no end to make others happy.
I have also learned to trust my own judgements and to make them - make choices and to use my initiative. Though it isnt always right, know one berates you for it - we are human after all. Having been given a role that requires a lot of responsibility, I have noted recently, I will need to be more thorough and confident in myself in order to take the lead. I am excited about this, and thus grateful that 2009 helped me set the ball rolling. Now 2010 can only get better - for everyone.

I also spruced up the depths of the Trolls cave that is my Love life - and note that I am not completely unattractive to the other sex, nor to ones that are actually my type! (yay) it was with my growing confidence and straightfoward 'fun and sexy' (pah!) approach to said gender that has set me on good course to play with my new found appeal to boys.

Oh and 2009 has helped me to recognise a kookier individual style that I intend to grasp and hone !!!

Take the good with the bad - thats what this year was about - I just needed to put my former self pitying views in to perspective and realise that I was even lucky to bare witness (fingers crossed its still 2 days before the New Year as I write this...) to seeing another year out!
bring on 2010.